I feel like my heart.. or my soul has been plucked out. This is an emptiness.. I wish I wasn’t familiar with.. Why does love always hurt so bad? Why can’t it just ever work out.. damn..
REBECCA!!!! <3 YOU ARE MY BACON AND I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE MY CHERRY GHOUL AND I LOVE YOU!!! <3 <3 <3
Once again.. I have some stuff to get off my shoulders and annoyingly… Tumblr is the only place where I won’t get ridiculed for it.. Here goes..
Lately I have had some mental issues, just trying to figure out what to even believe in anymore. I thought I had dreams and an interesting place to go in life. Now I am realizing that I just want to live.. I don’t know how to just live my life.. and not want someone elses life. Now I have been fighting this odd feeling that I am alone. I feel alone but I don’t believe I am. It doesn’t help that the only people I want to talk to just never talk back.. I never get to see them. I just sit in a room thinking.. and waiting. I haven’t had much work but at least I haven’t lost my job. I no longer care about making a difference on a worldly scale.. I just want to be happy I want to have someone I can make happy with me and just be happy with them. As long as I had a steady job and someone else to make happy and be happy with my life would feel complete. I’ve been diving myself into video games so deeply to just pass time until something happens.. distracting myself is interesting.. im not certain if its good or bad anymore to just forget about life for extended periods of time. I want to leave.. but I can’t. I want to be in someones arms.. but I can’t. I don’t know anymore what I am doing or what im going to do. I just hope my love life ends up working out somehow.. I really don’t want everything to end with me being alone like everyone has told me that I would be. I don’t want to be alone. I do have my cat.. but its not the same as a person. Eitherway… I guess I don’t have much I can do about my feelings other than do my best to deny them and distract myself so I don’t feel them.. *sigh* Thanks Tumblr at least I know there is a spot I can get something out where pretty nobody will see it because nobody follows me.
more painful than any bullet
WHAT KIND OF terrible person would create this
I want it.
i literally screamed “OH NO.”